Chapter 1.
*1 month after Damon's death*
*Elena's POV*
I woke up blinded by the bright sunlight coming from the window. My alarm was going off with that annoying *beep* *beep* sound. I was late. Again. But all I could think about lately was Damon. I still have that empty feeling in me like part of me died along with him. Its hard to bare the thought that he is gone and he isn't coming back. And what you know what sucks? I have to move on and continue my life.. without him.
I got up from the bed and walked into the bathroom. I was still a college girl with Caroline and... and Bonnie is dead, too. Pain hit me as I thought of her. I really miss her. I miss the girl nights we had where we would talk about boys and most likely everything. I miss and the simple life we had before Bonnie was a witch, Caroline was a vampire and I was a doppelganger and now a vampire too. I remember the day when Bonnie showed me her powers. Images of feathers flying around and I watching in awe flashed through my mind. Flashes of the normal teenage life we once had where the biggest problem was our grades in school. I shook my head and continued walking.
I took a look into the full length mirror while I was walking past it. My hair was a real mess today. I decided to take a quick shower. The hot water can be really relaxing.
I heard Caroline walking into the room, her high heels clicking on the wooden floor.
"Elena are you ready? We have to go after like 5 minutes. Hurry!" Caroline shouted from the room.
"Just a minute Car." I shouted back quickly wrapping a towel around my body and drying my hair.
"Your minute is going to get us late! Being late means we will have to deal with the teacher which means we will have to compel him."
She is talking about compulsion. Again. We can't just randomly compel people. This is not a part of normal collage life.
"Car you can't compel everyone. We are trying to live normal collage life. Remember?" I giggled and was able to hear her small laugh at the other side of the door.
"What? It's easier." she complained.
Тhen I heard her walking out of the room leaving me some privacy to dress.
Hurrying out of the bathroom I grabbed pair of black washed jeans and blue top. I'm not feeling all dressy today. I quickly dressed and applied mascara and a little lip gloss. I don't need a lot of make-up because being a vampire provides me with a wonderful skin.
Walking out of the room I saw her waiting for me outside.
"Finally! You are ready. I got you a cup of coffee." she said getting up and handing me a cup of black coffee. My favourite.
"Thanks." I said grabbing the cup.
I followed her out of our dorm. We had English class together with the annoying Mr. Parker. I hate that teacher. He would always give us tons of work to do and I'm not in mood for that. Luckily today he wasn't so grumpy. We sat in our usual spot at the back row.
"So how are the things with Stefan?" I asked her. After he came back she realized how much he means to her and they grew even closer. I'm happy for her. Stefan is kind and loving. Just the perfect boyfriend for her. After the whole Klaus drama and Bonnie's death she needed a little break.
"Good." she said half-smiling. I can sense in the way she quickly looked away that she is hiding something but I decide to let it go. For now.
The bell rang and Mr. Parker dismissed us. Everyone rushed out of the room, me and Caroline not loosing much time to get out too.
The day passed quickly. We were walking back to our dorm when Caroline noticed poster for the bonfire tonight.
"We should go." she said cheerfully.
"I think I'll pass. I'm not in mood for bonfire." I replied without any emotion.
"Come on Elena! You could use some distraction." she said frowning.
"Caroline" I warned her.
"Oh come on! You can't be grumpy all the time." she said with her puppy face on.
"Okay, okay I will come." I sighed while her smile was growing back on her face.
"Plus Daniel will be there too." she said, smirk showing up on her face. Daniel was a boy I met couple of days ago. He is really charming and all but I can't do this. I still have this feelings for Damon even though he is gone for me its like cheating on him. She thinks I have to move on and hook with the next boy I see, but that's not how it works.
I really don't want to go but I can't say no to her, either.
...
"Okay, how is that one?" asked Caroline showing up for the tenth time from the dressing room. She was wearing bright yellow flowy dress which ended right above her knee. It was beautiful. Better than the previous.
We were currently in the mall, shopping for the bonfire tonight. I didn't see need for new clothes, mine are perfectly fine, but of course Caroline had to drag me here.
"It looks beautiful on you" I said.
"Aww thank you. It will be this one then. We should find something for you too." she replied cheerfully.
...
"How about this one?" it was like the twentieth dress she showed me. Well this one was better. It was a blue flowy dress with V shaped neckline.
"I like it." I replied without much of emotion.
After Damon and Bonnie's death I hardly show any kind of emotions. I was about to turn my switch off but Caroline and Jeremy stopped me from doing it. But where is the point to feel? The only thing I feel is pain and loss. I can't even smile without remembering why I don't want to smile.
She quickly shoved me with the dress into the dressing room. I slipped out of my clothes and dressed. It was really good actually. I showed up from the dressing room to see Caroline in awe.
"It's perfect! Come on Elena I know you like it too. Tonight we should have some fun!" she said cheerfully with a smirk at the end. I know she has something in mind.
One night. Just one night I will let myself be happy because Damon would want me to be. I'm sure if he was here he wouldn't let me be miserable like I am now. I'll do it for him.
"Okay then." I said smiling back at her.
"Yey" she clapped her hands and hugged me. Typical Caroline. Always so happy and full of life.
After buying the dress she dragged me to another shop. Oh joy.
*Elena's POV*
I woke up blinded by the bright sunlight coming from the window. My alarm was going off with that annoying *beep* *beep* sound. I was late. Again. But all I could think about lately was Damon. I still have that empty feeling in me like part of me died along with him. Its hard to bare the thought that he is gone and he isn't coming back. And what you know what sucks? I have to move on and continue my life.. without him.
I got up from the bed and walked into the bathroom. I was still a college girl with Caroline and... and Bonnie is dead, too. Pain hit me as I thought of her. I really miss her. I miss the girl nights we had where we would talk about boys and most likely everything. I miss and the simple life we had before Bonnie was a witch, Caroline was a vampire and I was a doppelganger and now a vampire too. I remember the day when Bonnie showed me her powers. Images of feathers flying around and I watching in awe flashed through my mind. Flashes of the normal teenage life we once had where the biggest problem was our grades in school. I shook my head and continued walking.
I took a look into the full length mirror while I was walking past it. My hair was a real mess today. I decided to take a quick shower. The hot water can be really relaxing.
I heard Caroline walking into the room, her high heels clicking on the wooden floor.
"Elena are you ready? We have to go after like 5 minutes. Hurry!" Caroline shouted from the room.
"Just a minute Car." I shouted back quickly wrapping a towel around my body and drying my hair.
"Your minute is going to get us late! Being late means we will have to deal with the teacher which means we will have to compel him."
She is talking about compulsion. Again. We can't just randomly compel people. This is not a part of normal collage life.
"Car you can't compel everyone. We are trying to live normal collage life. Remember?" I giggled and was able to hear her small laugh at the other side of the door.
"What? It's easier." she complained.
Тhen I heard her walking out of the room leaving me some privacy to dress.
Hurrying out of the bathroom I grabbed pair of black washed jeans and blue top. I'm not feeling all dressy today. I quickly dressed and applied mascara and a little lip gloss. I don't need a lot of make-up because being a vampire provides me with a wonderful skin.
Walking out of the room I saw her waiting for me outside.
"Finally! You are ready. I got you a cup of coffee." she said getting up and handing me a cup of black coffee. My favourite.
"Thanks." I said grabbing the cup.
I followed her out of our dorm. We had English class together with the annoying Mr. Parker. I hate that teacher. He would always give us tons of work to do and I'm not in mood for that. Luckily today he wasn't so grumpy. We sat in our usual spot at the back row.
"So how are the things with Stefan?" I asked her. After he came back she realized how much he means to her and they grew even closer. I'm happy for her. Stefan is kind and loving. Just the perfect boyfriend for her. After the whole Klaus drama and Bonnie's death she needed a little break.
"Good." she said half-smiling. I can sense in the way she quickly looked away that she is hiding something but I decide to let it go. For now.
The bell rang and Mr. Parker dismissed us. Everyone rushed out of the room, me and Caroline not loosing much time to get out too.
The day passed quickly. We were walking back to our dorm when Caroline noticed poster for the bonfire tonight.
"We should go." she said cheerfully.
"I think I'll pass. I'm not in mood for bonfire." I replied without any emotion.
"Come on Elena! You could use some distraction." she said frowning.
"Caroline" I warned her.
"Oh come on! You can't be grumpy all the time." she said with her puppy face on.
"Okay, okay I will come." I sighed while her smile was growing back on her face.
"Plus Daniel will be there too." she said, smirk showing up on her face. Daniel was a boy I met couple of days ago. He is really charming and all but I can't do this. I still have this feelings for Damon even though he is gone for me its like cheating on him. She thinks I have to move on and hook with the next boy I see, but that's not how it works.
I really don't want to go but I can't say no to her, either.
...
"Okay, how is that one?" asked Caroline showing up for the tenth time from the dressing room. She was wearing bright yellow flowy dress which ended right above her knee. It was beautiful. Better than the previous.
We were currently in the mall, shopping for the bonfire tonight. I didn't see need for new clothes, mine are perfectly fine, but of course Caroline had to drag me here.
"It looks beautiful on you" I said.
"Aww thank you. It will be this one then. We should find something for you too." she replied cheerfully.
...
"How about this one?" it was like the twentieth dress she showed me. Well this one was better. It was a blue flowy dress with V shaped neckline.
"I like it." I replied without much of emotion.
After Damon and Bonnie's death I hardly show any kind of emotions. I was about to turn my switch off but Caroline and Jeremy stopped me from doing it. But where is the point to feel? The only thing I feel is pain and loss. I can't even smile without remembering why I don't want to smile.
She quickly shoved me with the dress into the dressing room. I slipped out of my clothes and dressed. It was really good actually. I showed up from the dressing room to see Caroline in awe.
"It's perfect! Come on Elena I know you like it too. Tonight we should have some fun!" she said cheerfully with a smirk at the end. I know she has something in mind.
One night. Just one night I will let myself be happy because Damon would want me to be. I'm sure if he was here he wouldn't let me be miserable like I am now. I'll do it for him.
"Okay then." I said smiling back at her.
"Yey" she clapped her hands and hugged me. Typical Caroline. Always so happy and full of life.
After buying the dress she dragged me to another shop. Oh joy.
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